Frustration. Should be used to it by now. I don't know why I'm constantly surprised and hurt by the fact that what it all comes down to is money. How long have I been learning this the hard way? 16 or 17 years now...since I first started riding and realized it was a money sport. Sometimes its humiliating, but I just keep fighting for everything, trying to prove that talent still counts for something and determination actually can get you places. I have the best people around me who help me as much as they can; and it means the world to me :) I think somewhere in me I know I'll make it, thats what keeps me pushing forward day after day and let down after let down. I have a once in a life time horse, an incredible trainer, and the perfect facility to school everything I need.
If your wondering where all this is coming from, in retrospect it seems like a silly reason. Can't go to Woodside this next month. Not sure when our next outing will be. Irritated because there will be little to no advancement without getting me and Regal out. And he's so ready. It just kills me to have to sit out while him and I are both coming into our prime. I'm learning to grit my teeth pretty well, stay positive, and look to the future.
Step 1: Now that we've moved up, its officially time to register me and Regal with the USEA...$120.
Step 2: We're going to try for something else this year. Hopefully two events at roughly $400 an event if you include entry, stabling, and travel. Two events would make me a verrrryyyy happy Tosha. Next after Woodside will be Twin Rivers I think. We'll aim for that one maybe.
Step 3: Breathe and smile :)
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